Monday, April 30, 2018

Panic at the Ice Rink

Christopher was very late for our lesson on Saturday so we only got 10 minutes instead of 20. He promised to give me extra time next week to make up for it. Cool. I'm just panicking because this was our final lesson before the "dress rehearsal" next week. It's getting down to the wire and I need him to help me polish everything up. Arghghgh.

So, he looked at my edges then we ran the program. He said the edges were "okay" so I'm interpreting that as they are good enough to pass. My program was rushed. Because we only had 10 minutes, I felt like I needed to rush everything so, as a result, I found myself slightly ahead of the music. I was also having a lot of leg pain so I flubbed the salchow and the one-foot spin. Basically, it was 1 minute 40 seconds of suck. As the judges would do, he let me reskate the salchow and the spin (and they were fine) but I would rather just skate a clean program, you know? Frustrating.

So, I'm going to have to put some extra time in this week at the rink because I don't want to have to reskate any elements for the test. This needs to be clean. I worked too hard for it not to be. I also need to get this pain or whatever is going on with my leg under control.

Countdown to Test Day: 11 days and one more lesson with Christopher

Thursday, April 26, 2018

Fe Fi Fo F*CK!

I should make a list of the elements and skills I'm losing as I get closer to test day. Lunges went away (or I guess they were never there) but are fixed now. One-foot spins have always been easy for me but as of Sunday they're gone with no sign of returning. And today, I lost my outside edges forwards and backwards. Aren't we supposed to get better the more we practice?

I spent almost the whole hour today on Moves. Perimeter Stroking felt fine on both sides but my crossovers at the end still feel forced even though I made a special effort to not be steppy. The speed was good and I was getting on my outside edges for each stroke. Maybe the judges will be focused more on the stroking technique than they are on the crossovers. Then, edges happened. My FO edges...gone. Like, those are the easiest ones! I start on my right foot and that edge is fine. It's when I switch to my left that I lose control and do more of a swingroll than a controlled edge. FI edges were just fine. BO edges, not so much. With these, I'm on too deep of an edge so I'm starting to circle in on the line. I just can't flatten it out. These used to be easy for me until today. BI edges were fine. Actually, they were more than fine, they felt pretty great. So, I'm not sure why my inside edges are so much stronger than my outside edges. I just hope things even out come test day.

I moved over to the hockey circles to work on my crossover pattern. I feel like everything has a nice cadence but I had a scary moment when I tried to emphasize the underpush and tweaked my bad ankle a bit. I'm okay. It was just jarring. The swingroll mohawk transition works every time now so no worries there. Moving on to waltz 8! I finally remembered what to do with my arms! Celebration time! I only did a couple of these but I don't feel like they need my focus now. Spirals happened.

With my final 15 minutes I worked on jumps, spins, and sections of the program. My lunge is finally consistent. It's still not perfect but is so much less of a worry now.

Had a pretty bad fall on my FO edges of all things. I caught my toepick and down I went. I should have a fancy bruise on my knee by tomorrow.


Countdown to test day: 15 days and 2 more lessons with Christopher

Sunday, April 22, 2018

Progress Report

Somehow things are coming together. I'm glad for it because I only have about three weeks until test day and only two more lessons with Christopher. Eeep!

Saturday Lesson - We ran through the entire moves test. Edges look okay now that I fixed the arms. For some reason my first lobe on both forward edges is bigger than the rest so I just need to be mindful about that. I also need to remember to pass the arms through closer to my body on the backward edges. He said the waltz 8 was good but wants me to watch my arms and circle size. Crossovers are the biggest challenge now. They were steppy during the perimeter stroking but better on the crossover move. He gave me an exercise to do by the boards so I will remember to push the proper way. He would rather see slower crossovers with a nice strong underpush than quick steppy ones. I think I just need to pick a hockey circle and devote some serious time to crossover technique. I did one pass of spirals but had to abort because the session was crowded. We were running out of time so he had me skate my program without the music. I biffed the final one-foot spin because I was going too fast. I got my bearings and started the spin over. I'm allowed to reskate two individual elements so, worst case scenario, I will get a second chance on two things. Hopefully, I will skate a clean program and I can just be done. He asked about what I'm wearing for the test and suggested that I wear the dress during our lesson a week before testing so I can get the feel of it. I can wear my club jacket for the Moves portion but will take it off for the free skate program. I anticipate being very chilly so I asked him if nude colored gloves are acceptable for the program and he approved. Good, at least my hands will be covered. I'm going to feel so naked.

Sunday Practice - Because the test is getting so close and I'm starting to panic, I went to a public session at APEX on Sunday afternoon. It was not ideal. It was busy and there wasn't a lot of room to do much of anything but I just needed to put in the time. Anything is better than nothing. I worked a lot on the salchow to make sure I was taking my time with it and my arms were good. I think it's passable. Two-foot spins were just fine so no worries there. I worked on proper arms with edges and waltz 8. My lunge improved! If I think about over-correcting to the right, I can go in a straight line. So, it's a mental game but at least I have a fix now. Basically everything got worked on where I could find room to fit it in. I could not for the life of me get a one-foot spin done. This isn't usually a problem so I'm not sure what was going on. The only thing I could think of was that I got my blades sharpened on Saturday and they were "sticky." I might drop in on a freestyle session at my home rink tomorrow morning and see if my spins have improved at all. Otherwise, panic and flail.

Countdown to Test Day - 19 days and 2 more lessons with Christopher

Thursday, April 19, 2018

Skid Row

Still haven't had time to make it to the pro shop to get my blades sharpened so there was a lot of skidding happening today, especially on my edges. I won't get a chance to get my sharpening done until after my lesson on Saturday. So, my lesson should be interesting :-/

Movez - Per usual, I ran my moves test. I got my edges back under control again with the proper arms. I think I was just overthinking and I lost my mind for a bit. All better now, though. Spirals are feeling much better now that I'm making it a habit to stretch more. On my crossovers, I felt like I was extra scratchy on the CW back crossovers. I think it's a knee bend issue. I need to sit more and lean forward less. Waltz 8 felt fine. Just a little scary because of the skidding. Nothing special to report about perimeter stroking. It's about the same as always.

Programz - That damn lunge. My lunge epiphany and my thoughts about fixing what was wrong didn't translate well to the ice at all. It's still a mess. I ran through the sections of my program and replaced the lunge with a spiral and it feels so much better. I doubt Christopher will be accepting of the replacement if I ask. The whole point is to challenge me. If I replace an element I am not performing well with one that I already know how to do, how am I learning anything? I get it. But I also want to pass the test. I'll ask. The worst that happens is he says no. When I was taking my skates off after my session I was speaking to another adult skater friend and he agreed that lunges are the devil. When he said "the trailing leg just acts like a rudder and I'm all over the place" I could have hugged him. Finally, someone who gets it! I just can't make my lunge straight despite working on it. This is frustrating! Anyway, the rest of the program is just fine. I need to figure out a way to slow down before the final spin since I'm entering it from forward crossovers and not backward crossovers. Hooking into a spin on my bad leg at forward speed is terrifying.

Jumpz and Spinz - These got worked on in the context of my program but I did practice some on their own. Again, I worked on trying to slow down enough to make my final one-foot spin less scary. The two foot spin is a non-issue so I didn't spend too much time on that. Waltz jumps felt good as did my half flips but my salchows were so tiny today. I attribute that to the pain I've been experiencing lately. I think I'm twisting a lot on my left leg which exacerbates the pain. But when I remember to do a proper three turn and hold that BI edge longer without rushing, it doesn't hurt as much. So, you know, when I do it properly it hurts less. Duh.

Testz - This is happening! I registered for both tests on May 11th and gave the RMFSC all of my dollars so there's no backing out now. Fingers crossed that I don't break more bones or something between now and then :)

Countdown to Test Day: 22 days and 3 more lessons with Christopher

Monday, April 16, 2018

Lunge Epiphany!

I finally figured out what's wrong with my lunge! Every time I go into a lunge where my left leg drags behind, I end up on an inside edge and turn my forward lunge into a three-turn lunge or, worse, fall over completely. The other day when I was doing lunges on the floor, I noticed that when I go into a lunge my right hip is sticking out too much and isn't over my center where it should be thereby throwing me off kilter. When I do a lunge on my other side, however, this doesn't happen. I don't do lunges on the other side because of pain so it has taken me a while to figure this out and I'm not sure Christopher would have easily noticed either. He probably thinks I'm just terrible at lunges (which, admittedly, I am).

I'm thinking of experimenting with this the next time I get on the ice. If I can manage a lunge on my bad leg (right leg dragging behind) I might just be able to eek out a good lunge for the test. I would rather be in slight pain for four seconds and perform a good lunge than to be in no pain and have a really bad lunge.

My body is weird. Fingers crossed that this fixes the problem :)

Friday, April 13, 2018

Leg rant

I've been really good about not complaining about pain in my left leg but I think I just didn't want to complain because I felt some pride in the fact that I'm not complaining. Does that make sense? Anyway, please allow me to complain. The past week or so I have been having pretty bad pain in my left leg where the plate and screws are. Last night I was limping a bit and Dustin noticed how swollen my ankle was. I'm not sure if I tweaked something but my leg hurts almost as bad as it did when I was first learning to walk after having the boot removed. I know I should go see my ortho for some x-rays but I'm really afraid that they are going to suggest getting the hardware out soon and with my test in four weeks that's the last thing I want. OR....what if they tell me I did tweak something and I need surgery ASAP? I just need to hold out a little longer so I can pass this test. Every time I get ready to test something happens. I know I risk re-injury if I wait but dammit I've been working on this test for so long and I just want to get it done.

I'm so frustrated with my body right now.

Thursday, April 12, 2018

A Farewell to Arms

Is it possible to practice something to the point of making it even worse than when you started it? I think I ruined my edges. Like, I did them well enough before but then I started messing around with my arms and consequently messed up my edges. I don't even know what I'm doing anymore. I think what I'll do is bring a notebook to my next lesson and have Christopher tell me what the arms do on each set of edges and then just write it down so I don't forget. Ugh, this is the dumbest thing!

Obviously, I worked mostly on moves this morning. I ran through the test in order but I did several sets of each move before moving on to the next. Oddly, my BI edges are the ones that make the most sense to me and I don't feel like I'm struggling with those at all. Aren't those supposed to be the most difficult of the four? Perhaps I'm just overthinking the others. Maybe if I just stop thinking about arms completely I can get back to where I started. I have discovered, however, that I'm in desperate need of a sharpening. I was skidding a lot. I'll get it done this weekend.

I ran my program (the whole thing, not just sections) a few times but I had to do it without music since I didn't have anyone to press play for me. Alas. But it's flowing much better so there's that. I really need more time in my schedule to practice. I was speaking with another adult skater whose session is right after mine on Thursdays and he says Monday mornings are usually uncrowded. I can't really afford to add a third day to my contract when the new one comes out in May but I might have to find a way to make it happen. I'm not getting enough time on the ice. Also, if I remember correctly from last summer, I think our club removes the 6:00am sessions for the summer months so, honestly, I feel like I'm going to get screwed this summer and not be able to practice at all. Ah, the perils of being an adult skater....

Saturday, April 7, 2018

Saturday Lesson

Not much to report here except, you know, it didn't suck. We split our time between moves and the program.

Movez - Things are coming along. Again with the arms. Swingroll transition on the crossovers needs more swing and more forward extension. Stop extending the leg so much on the back edges. Don't forget to hold everything for the proper counts in the waltz 8. Better stretch on the spirals but make sure you don't bring the free leg down too soon. Overall rating by my coach = passable.

Programz - A little bit of traveling on the one-foot spin during the first go around without music but I fixed it on the actual run-through with the music. He mentioned that it looked like the part after the half-flip has improved a little (yay progress). Just make sure I have a strong check on the three-turn entry of the salchow as well as the landing. Overall rating by my coach = passable.

So now I polish and clean everything up. I have four more weeks which seems like a lot of time but also doesn't seem like a lot of time. I may have to visit a public session every now and then to get some ice time in. I really want to perform well for the test and not just simply "pass."

Also!!!!!! Happy Skate-versary to me! On April 8th last year, I started my jumps class with Christopher and now here we are a year later getting ready to test. I hate that for half of the year I was off the ice with my broken leg but I have come a long way considering I'm recovering from a major injury. I'm really proud of myself for recovering the way I did. I really try my best not to complain during my lessons about what hurts and how much of a setback this all was. Nobody wants to hear a complainer, right? However, I still have moments where I think about where I would be now if I hadn't been sidelined. I just have to remind myself that, although progress is slow, it's still happening. As long as I'm a better skater than I was the day before, I'm moving in the right direction :)

Thursday, April 5, 2018

Upward Spiral

After my last post I decided that being frustrated and in my head at the rink is not the most conducive to practice. So before I went to the rink for my early morning freestyle I stretched, did some light cardio (running in place because I still can't actually run yet*), and pushed out all the negativity. Today is going to be a good day!

Movez - After some warm-up laps I ran through my entire Pre-Bronze MIF test. Perimeter Stroking felt a little shaky but once I got to the CW side I seemed more stable. Consecutive Edges felt really nice, especially the forward ones. The backward edges felt like they had a better push so that seems like a small improvement over last week. I'll take it! Crossover Pattern felt much speedier! The backward crossovers were especially fast since I tried reaching out to the side more. It was actually kind of frightening. I wasn't sure I could stop! I almost ate it on the final backward outside edge/step forward. That was kind of jarring. I feel like if I'm doing this move slowly, I have better technique. But then I'm supposed to have power too so when I add power, my technique declines. I need to find a balance. Waltz 8 felt pretty smooth. I still need to remember the proper arms on that first three turn. I'm getting it just fine on the CW side but then I forget my arms on the CCW side. So yeah, my feetz know what to do but my armz don't. Alas. Finally, Spirals. You know, today was the best I think I've done them in a while. I actually did them twice because I was surprised at how not scary they were today! Neat! So, I think my moves test is passable. I really just want it to be super polished.

Spinz - I did one really good scratch spin that I felt pretty proud of! I hit the sweet spot right away, I held everything stretched out for a long while before bringing it in, and arms above the head for the finish. If you saw me, you might have thought I knew what I was doing ;)

Programz - After Saturday's disaster of a run-through, I spent about half of my practice working on all or parts of the program. By this time, though, more skaters had gotten on the ice and they were running their programs with their coaches so there were moments where I had to break out of my program to give them the right of way. I think I was able to get one complete run-though in about 30 minutes but I was able to work on some sections that needed polishing. The lunge is still giving me grief. I hate to say it but oh how I wish it were a spiral instead. Next time I practice, I'm just going to have to dedicate more time to the lunge to get it more consistent. I will say that as much as I hated the two foot spin, having one in my program has forced me to practice it so much that it's cake now. It's still not my favorite but I hate it less. I'm determined that this whole thing will be better looking the next time Christopher sees it.

*Seriously, I can't even jog it hurts so much! If the zombie apocalypse hits anytime soon, just save yourself. I won't be able to run or keep up. Don't worry, I've accepted this fate :)