Saturday, March 23, 2019

Push

Today's lesson was all about moves in the field. We briefly discussed a June test date so now I have a deadline to shoot for. I always work best when I have a goal in sight.

Power 3 Turnz - We worked a bit on getting that weight shift correct and I think I finally got it once he had me add more speed. I think what really clicked today was him having me treat it like the five step mohawks in the sense that everything has an even cadence and I'm counting out the steps. They still aren't perfect but with this little fix, I think they are slightly improved. I also have to remember to step wide onto an inside edge after the 3 turn with a little chasse right before (I think I'm remembering that correctly). There are so many little parts to this to keep in mind and I think that's why I'm struggling to get this to where it needs to be.

BX-BO Edgez - I thought these were fine. Guess what, they are not fine. First, he changed where I placed them. He would like me to now skate then down the center of the rink instead of just on one side so I can make these BIG. Then he pretty much corrected my everything. I need to spend more time on the crossover and then PUSH onto the BO edge.

Five Step Mohawkz - These were generally okay except he would like more of a PUSH on that third step. I was just extending but I didn't push. Push, push push. But he liked my extensions so there's that.

Camelz - We had just a few minutes to look at my camel spins to see how they are coming along. He instructed me to stay bent at the waist as much as I can on the entry edge so I don't have to work as hard bending forward after I've already entered the spin. Also, arching my back will keep things where they need to be. For once, he actually told me that I'm too relaxed going into it. I need to be a little more tense.

Programz - Finally, we talked about Free Skate Testing and how we need to change up the program to accommodate the requirements for the test. We'll look at it during out next lesson but so far he's thinking we might replace the salchow with a flip and replace the waltz-falling leaf-half flip with a salchow. Everything else stays the same.

Friday, March 22, 2019

Spiraling

I had a pretty productive practice this morning! I pretty much worked on everything with the exception of Backward 3 Turns (I'll see if we can look at them tomorrow during our lesson).

Edgez and Movez - Same old stuff. Just maintenance and trying to get more power in my power 3 turns. In preparation for my camel spin, I wanted to work on the spiral exercise that Christopher gave me last week. I was inspired to work a bit more on these so I attempted the alternating spirals from Silver Moves. Oof, this wasn't pretty. Like...at all. BUT, I did a bunch of them and I know that the more frequently I do a thing, the less scary it will be and the better I will get at it. And, let's face it, I need all the help I can get on my spirals. FO Spirals were not a total disaster but the FI spirals were a hot mess. Yikes.

Spinz - I worked a bit on the camel and I feel like I got my entrance a bit better but the spinning is still not really happening. I'm sure it will get there but it's going to be a long process. I did some backspins as well. They were flamingo'd.

Jumpz - I did all of my program jumps but spent most of my time working on flips. I'm not scared anymore. I thought Tuesday was a fluke but I was able to work on them today too and there was no hesitation. So, at least there has been some progress in my level of fear on this thing. I'll take it.

Tuesday, March 19, 2019

Running on Empty

There are a lot of scary things happening right now at work. We are in the middle of building a new library which is supposed to open on April 1st and I don't have staffing for our increased hours of operation, I have to pack up soooo many books, and I was just told I won't have bookshelves until May (a month after we open) so, as you can imagine, I'm under a lot of stress and the anxiety is at an all time high. I was looking forward to waking up this morning and hitting the ice because, when I'm skating, I can't think of anything other than what I'm doing. It's nice to escape for a bit.

Edgez & Movez - After warming up, I started right away with edges (forward and backward) and the circle 8. Everything here feels really good. So much so, in fact, that I felt like I just wanted to do the circle 8 for the whole hour. It's like meditation to me now. I ran through the rest of my bronze moves spending extra time on the power 3 turns to really focus on that shift of weight and putting more power into it. I'm not sure if anything improved in this regard but I did the things.

Spinz - I touched on everything today including revisiting the two-foot spin just to see if I still had it (it's been a while). I did some one-foot spins, attitudes, backspins and sit spins but mostly I worked on the camel spin. I'm getting two revs max but no more. I feel like I'm just not positioning my body parts where they should be. I'll keep working on it. I'm kinda hoping that one of these days I'll have an "aha" moment like I did with the toe loop and things will just fall into place from there.

Jumpz - So yeah, things are scary at work so, by comparison, the flip jump seemed like cake today. Absolutely no hesitation to work on this at all. Zero fear. It was more like "my soul is dying so how much harm can a flip jump do, right?" I lost count of how many I did but I do know that I packed as many as I could into a 10 minute time span (because that's really all the time I had left after everything else). They were small and slow but they were landed on one foot. I should be more excited but I'm feeling pretty numb all over at this point. Meh.


Saturday, March 16, 2019

The Tale of the Wonky Camel

Camelz - As Christopher was getting on the ice, he caught me mid-camel. Obviously a sub-par camel in terms of technique so this is what we started our lesson with. He made some adjustments with my arms and gave me a tortuous exercise that's essentially just a left leg spiral but, as we all know, my left leg is trash. This will take some time.

Power 3z - Next up, a look at my Power 3 Turns. I have the 3s down pat but I'm lacking the power push right before the backwards crossover. I'm just not shifting my weight the right way. I think this move is passable but it's not where I want it to be. I really want to get the technique down. I also need to stay true to the axis. I tend to drift.

Flipz -I knew these were coming but I was just hoping he would forget? He didn't so we got to work on these. He's having me do them slowly on the blue line making sure to stay on the line (I tend to curve these too much). He reminded me that it's not so much a vault off of the toepick but more of a jump off of a backward pivot. We did a few and they were all slow and sloppy but I'm going to work on them hard now. This whole fear thing is really holding me back. Just like the toe loops that I was able to fix by making them slow and small, that's how I'm going to approach these flip jumps until I can build them up to something decent.

Competition Debriefz - Obviously my sit spins are trash because of my injury and there is really nothing more I can do about these outside of continued stretching. Christopher sent me a video of some exercises using a half foam roller that are supposed to help with stability and core strength. As I was looking more into this half foam roller thing I saw that I can also use it to develop ankle strength and improve my dorsiflexion. I immediately ordered one from amazon and I am anxiously awaiting its arrival. So, I told him that I'll keep working on it. My sit spins may never be great but I can at least attempt to make them less awful. He also mentioned that speed and confidence seemed to be an issue so that is something that I will focus on in my practices. Overall, I think he was proud of me and I did what I set out to do - not embarrass myself. So, success!


Friday, March 15, 2019

Camels and Flamingos

I added Friday mornings to my contract and, although in the past I have been intimidated by the higher level skaters who attend this session, I now find that it really pushes me to skate better (mostly because I don't want to embarrass myself or be a poor representative for adult skating). I worked on a lot today and I'm exhausted...and hungry!

Movez - My power 3 turns felt really good today! I feel like they were a lot less scratchy too so maybe these are halfway decent now? Circle 8 was also nice so I did it a few times. I'm feeling a lot more secure on my LFO edge now compared to a year ago when it seemed impossible. BX-BO edges were fine as was my power stroking. I spent some time trying to get better flow on my five-step mohawks. Oddly, it's not the mohawks that are difficult for me, it's really just getting into a groove with it. Hopefully we can spend some time looking at this tomorrow during our lesson just to make sure I'm on the right track.

Spinz - My focus was mostly on backspins and camels today. For the backspins, my "boob trick" is working really well and I had a couple of spins that were right on that sweet spot so I was able to spin for a while (I'm guessing about 5-6 revs?). They are still flamingo'd but I'll take what I can get at this point. Next up were camels and I'm still struggling getting past 1-2 revs. I had one where I snapped up into it from the entry and that was the one where I got the most revs. I think I'm just getting up on my toepick during these and that kinda stops all momentum. I really need to figure out where to put my weight (I mean, I know where to put my weight I just can't get my body to do the thing). I did a couple of sit spins and attitudes just to say I did. They were meh at best.

Jumpz - Well, I'm back to being fearful on my flip again. So stupid. I've been practicing them on the floor at home, I know how they are done, I've done them before, but I just cannot get past the fear! I'm registering for an all day figure skating clinic that takes place here in town in April and one of the sessions they have focuses on sport psychology. I'm really hoping I can figure out why there is such an impenetrable fear block on this jump. It makes zero sense to me and I'm so frustrated with myself because, until I get past this, I can't move on and make progress with my skating. Sigh.

Skillz - I worked on backward 3 turns but didn't make much headway. I'm experiencing some fear issues on these too. In fact, it feels like the same kind of fear I have with the flip jump. I'm wearing padded shorts so backwards falls don't really hurt so there is no reason why I should be scared of these. I wish I could unplug my brain and plug it back in again to reset things. It's crazy how willing I am to work on other scary things but not back 3s and flips. Ugh. Finally, I did some spirals and twizzles to keep those from deteriorating.


Tuesday, March 12, 2019

Back to the grind

Alright, first practice after the competition and boy do I have a lot to work on! I divided my time evenly among three major areas:

Edgez and Movez - My forward edges are just fine because I use them as part of my warm ups but I honestly can't tell you the last time I did backward edges. I know way in the future I'm going to have to start working on the backwards circle 8 so becoming reacquainted with my backwards edges will help. Ooof, these were bad! But, after a few passes, I started to get the feel for them again. After those felt more comfortable, I ran through the entirety of my bronze moves making sure I do each move at least 2-3 times. Everything felt fine as usual but I think I made a slight improvement on my power 3 turns on my bad side. I realized that if I look straight ahead while doing the back crossover right before the step forward, it flows better. I'll have Christopher take a look on Saturday to make sure this is an okay thing to do.

Jumpz and Spinz - I ran through all of my program jumps and then added some fun new ones for variety. I worked on a split falling leaf and a stag jump from a falling leaf. Both were gross looking but it was fun to try. No flips today but I did some flip prep exercises. I hate myself for chickening out on the flips, though. Next, I worked on my program spins, particularly the sit spin to see if I can force myself to get lower (I can't) and the attitude to see if I could get it more consistent (I did). Since Christopher mentioned camel spins in passing while we were at the competition this past weekend, I decided to throw a couple of camels in my practice to get a head start. I'm able to get about 1 1/2 revs out of this but it's nothing spectacular. The tracings look like big circles so I'm pretty sure I'm doing something wrong here. Backspins got worked on as well. I had a bit of an epiphany while working on these! When I pull my arms in over my right boob instead of bringing them in to the middle of my chest, I have more control over the spin and end up with more revolutions! I guess doing it this way prevents me slightly from ending up on an inside edge and falling out of it? I don't care...it works! And I'm going to keep doing it!

Skillz - Since my spirals were so crappy on that weird ice, I wanted to make sure it was the weird ice and not just me being an unskilled pansy so I did a whole bunch of spirals making sure to lean way forward and press the heel. Hey, guess what? I had no problems today with these so I'm totally blaming the weird ice, lol. Next, I tried some backward 3 turns with very little success. Why are these so hard for me? So frustrating! I did some twizzles and fell a lot so I decided to call it a day before I hurt myself :)


Monday, March 11, 2019

2018-2019 Adult Competition Series Results

So, it's the official end to my 2018-2019 season and the officials have tallied up our totals to determine our placements overall for the series. I think that I had a pretty strong season considering this was my first season skating competitively. I'm proud of how far I've come this past year. I worked hard, overcame some huge obstacles (that loop jump fear was strong, ya'll), and improved my confidence and technique. My coach seems pretty proud of me too and that means a whole hellava lot. He has been so patient with me this past year so, if they gave out trophies for awesome coaches, he would win first place for sure just for having to put up with me, lol.

I ended up with enough points to earn a second place finish in the series! WOOT! Look at my super fancy trophy! It weighs a ton but that's because I think it's literally made with all of my blood, sweat, and tears throughout the season.

I'm a happy skater :)



Saturday, March 9, 2019

Sectionals Recap: Part 2 - Free Skate

Long warm up - I signed up for a 15 minute warm up but it was scheduled several hours before my free skate so I'm not sure how much it warmed me up, exactly. It was just okay. I was really struggling still to get used to the weird ice so my spins were crap and my jumps were meh. It really didn't help me feel confident at all going into my free skate. They also never gave us a 1 minute warming toward the end, they just waited until the 15 minutes was up and then announced that the warm-up had concluded. That caught me off guard a bit. I got off the ice, took my skates off, and sat in the stands to watch the Silver ladies compete. My friend Marie qualified for Nationals so I'm really glad I got to see her skate. She did an amazing job!

Short warm up - Fast forward about 3 hours and now it's time to get dressed for my free skate and start stretching. My coach arrived and I think he could tell that I was nervous. Seriously, that ice killed my spirit a bit. He reminded me to relax and have fun and to BREATHE! I got on the ice for my 5 minute warm up and ran through everything like we planned (one lap of stroking, all of my jumps in each quadrant, both spins, and a run through of the footwork sequence). I finished all of that by the time they gave the one minute warning so I just did a couple of laps while doing some slow, deep breathing to kill some time and calm myself down. 

Free Skate Event - I was second out of seven to skate so I was properly warmed up and ready to go when I was announced. I took one final breath, got into position, and smiled really big at the judges one last time before my music started. Although my loop-loop combo was inconsistent in practice, I pulled it off for the performance. Was it perfect? Naw. But I did it and I didn't fall so that was a HUGE relief. Again with the shaky spiral and I rushed my salchow. My toe loop was proper, though! So, yeah. My jumps got landed, my spins spun (kinda) and I ended on time with the music. There was only one point where I felt like I was behind the music and that was right after my sit spin because I ended facing the wrong direction so I had to add some additional crossovers to set up for the stag jump (which only ended up being a half flip because I felt rushed). It's such a speedy routine and if I have even one mishap, it throws everything off. But I got caught back up and back on track. My final attitude spin wasn't centered at all and I couldn't get the free leg higher without falling out of it so I abandoned it after two revolutions. Not my best spin. 

Results - After a tie breaker, I finished 4th to get the pewter medal. I think what it came down to were my spins. Because of my injury, I don't think I'll ever have a low enough sit spin to compete with and my attitude spin was trash. The person who got third had better spins but two footed a landing or two so I can see why we were tied. Maybe they just liked that person's program better overall and that's what broke the tie? Who knows. What I do know is that I skated a program that I am not embarrassed to show people. It was a relatively clean program and, although it's speedy, I was able to keep up (this time). I was disappointed to get 4th but this will light the fire under my ass to really work on technique, timing, and artistry. 

Friday, March 8, 2019

Sectionals Recap: Part 1 - Compulsory Moves

Practice Ice - I only had one event on the first day of sectionals (compulsory moves) and this is the one event where I feel pretty capable and relaxed about everything. My coach got there just before the start of my 30 minute practice ice so I was ready to go. This is really a last minute lesson in a way because he was coaching me from the boards. Immediately upon getting on the ice I noticed how freaking weird it was! It's elevated on a platform and the ice...was bouncy? I don't know how to describe it. It kinda gave a little when I landed my jumps and it was an odd sensation for sure. As a result, it took me a few minutes to get accustomed to the feeling of skating on this kind of ice. Eventually, my jumps felt secure enough but my spirals just didn't feel right. They were really shaky and insecure. I mean, I don't have the best spirals naturally anyway but, lately in practices, I've been able to bend more at the waist to get my free leg higher. On this ice, however, it just felt dangerous to do that so my spirals were real crap. I'm glad I signed up for practice ice because I think if I were to have gotten on this ice for my warm-up I would have panicked a little.

Warm up - I think we got a 5 minute warm up instead of 4. It certainly felt like a long time out there. It was more than I needed, really. I made some last minute adjustments but mostly I just did edges to get a feel for the ice. The weird, weird ice. 

Compulsory Moves Event - Showtime! I was first in my group to get on the ice and, as soon as I skated out to my spot, the announcer said "you may begin" before I even set up my starting pose. I was like "okay, I guess it's time to go!" Everything went really well. I did a proper toe loop (not cheated!) and my spin was centered perfectly. You can tell in the video how insecure I was feeling about my spiral because it was very hesitant and then I caught a rut getting out of it. A slight bobble but I recovered nicely. It's hardly noticeable on the video but just know that, in that moment, my heart stopped. 

Results - There were four of us total and I placed 2nd. I am pleased with the results. The lovely lady who placed first had a really nice spiral and seemed a bit more confident than me. She skated beautifully and totally deserved her first place medal. I did everything I set out to do. I skated a clean program with a proper toe loop and centered spin. I really can't complain. The video is below but the quality is pretty crappy. I fussed with it a bit to see if I could make it better but it was shot on my husband's cell phone and I guess that's just the way it looks. Overall, I consider Day 1 a success!

Tuesday, March 5, 2019

I am one with the force, the force is with me.

This morning was my final practice before the competition. At this point, I either know it or I don't. There is really nothing I can do today to make any major changes to either program so today was just a chill day. I worked on everything, sure, but I didn't fret about stuff. I don't want to feel incapable this close to the competition.

Movez - I worked some of them but not all. They are still okay.

Compulsoriez - This is fine. Even the spiral was acceptable. I made sure not to cheat any of my toe loops today. I would rather have small and proper toe loops than big and powerful cheated toe loops so I worked on slowing down my approach a bit to avoid rushing. Spins were meh.

Programz - Mostly, I focused on the footwork sequence (especially that damn twizzle) and the loop-loop combo. Everything was mostly okay. The best loop-loop combos I did were the ones where I was relaxed (of course). Nothing has me really panicked. I wouldn't go so far as to say I'm confident but I'm just really trying to stay calm and trust that my body knows what to do.

Miscellaneouz - During my last 15-20 minutes, I really just wanted to push the competition to the back of mind and work on stuff that I haven't touched in a while. I wanted to remind myself why I love skating and, I think when you work on the same thing over and over and over again, you lose sight of that. So, since I know I'm going to have to work on them pretty soon, I did some BO3 turns. My RBO is okay but I couldn't get my LBO to happen. And I didn't even touch the inside 3 turns but those will get drilled shortly after the competition. I also revisited the half lutz. I did one that was actually pretty high off the ice and it scared me a little. I was so concerned about getting on an outside edge right before I pick in that I didn't check how much power I was putting forth. Yikes. I stopped working on them after that because landing forward on my left toepick from that height didn't exactly feel awesome.

Pep Talkz - So, now the plan is to continue to relax in the days leading up my events. From experience, I know that I shouldn't drink coffee the day of, no "beast mode" music playing in my car on the way to the rink (just classical, maybe an audiobook), and DON'T OVERTHINK. I've done everything I can do to prepare for this and no amount of thinking or extra practice is going to change that. No matter what happens this weekend, I know that I worked my butt off this past year and have become an even stronger skater than I was before I broke my leg. If I win, that's nice. I'll keep moving forward. If I don't place well, then I know I have some more work to do and I'll keep moving forward. Either way, I'm moving in a positive direction with my skating. As long as I keep making progress, I'm happy :)

Saturday, March 2, 2019

Dress Rehersalz

Alright! Final lesson before the big competition and I'm feeling fancy in my sparkly dress. I don't know what it is, but when you put your competition dress on, you feel like you can conquer the world! So, yeah, this dress makes me feel powerful (albeit a little naked) and I love it! Christopher approves too so, yay!

Compulsoriez - On the day of my compulsory event, I have a 30 minute unofficial practice ice scheduled so that will be a good opportunity to get familiar with the quality of the ice and orient myself to where the judges will be so I can be sure to make that all important eye contact. No program music will be played but I'll have Christopher at the boards to remind me to breathe, relax, and watch my arms on those spins. After the practice ice, I'll get another 4-5 minute warm-up right before the compulsory event starts and, since the skating orders have been posted, I know I'm skating first in my group. I'll be ready to go! We ran through the compulsory program today and I clocked in at 1:25 so at least I'm pretty consistent with my times. He would just like to see more of an outside edge on my spiral but he complimented me on my toe loop. As long as I don't rush the toe loop, I know I'll be able to do a proper uncheated jump which should earn me some extra points.

Warm upz - On the second day of competition, I have a 15 minute warm up and then the obligatory warm up right before the free skate. So we ran through the plan for the short warm up since I only get 4-5 minutes. I'll be doing one full lap of stroking with extensions and power (because first impressions count), my jumps in each quadrant of the ice, my two spins, and one section of the program (this will be my footwork sequence). That should easily take up the time allotted for the warm-up and will get rid of any jitters (theoretically). I know that I'm skating second in my group for the free skate so, even though skating early is not the most desirable, at least I know that I'll still be warm when it's my turn to hit the ice! The important thing is to breathe and not rush anything.

Free Skatez - We ran the program and I landed all of the jumps and spins and ended on time with the music. At one point, I got about a beat or two behind the music because I held my sit spin just a wee bit too long and I ended up rushing the jump sequence to catch up. When I was done and skated back to him, his main criticism was that it looked rushed in that section. Well, yeah. I think if I do this on competition day, I'll skip the stag jump right before the jump sequence to stay on track. Hopefully, I'll just do everything correctly and won't have to resort to skipping elements but it never hurts to have a plan. This is the one section where I consistently fall behind the music so I need to work on this for Tuesday.

Fluffz - Finally, we worked on how I will enter and exit the ice and my final bows. This is just fluff stuff but, you know, how you present yourself matters quite a bit so it's good to take a glance at it before the competition.

I had a good skate today! Was it perfect? No! But I skated my best and I think if I skate like I did today at the competition, I'll do alright for myself. The biggest confidence boost was Christopher saying "you're ready." It means so much to hear that he believes that I've done what I can to get to this point. Now, I need to just remember to have fun, breathe, relax, and trust my training.



Friday, March 1, 2019

Getting closer...

I dropped in on another Friday morning freestyle today because 1). I really need the extra practice and 2). All drop-in punch cards are expiring tomorrow and I have one punch left. Gotta use it! Honestly, I really enjoy skating Friday mornings! It's older teens and adults and it's relatively uncrowded. Plus, I get to skate with my friend Carl :) I like it so much, in fact, that for this next contract, I have added Friday mornings permanently. So, I'll be going from two sessions a week to three and we'll see if my skating improves a bit with the extra ice time.

Movez - Fine. These are fine.

Compulsoriez - I ran this a few times and it wasn't as great as it usually is. I'm not sure if it's competition jitters or if today was just a bad skate day but whatever it is, it sucked. It wasn't terrible, it just wasn't as clean as I usually do it. And my spins were gross today. Couldn't center to save my life! Ugh.

Programz - Mostly chunks. Since the twizzle and the loop-loop combo are my most inconsistent elements in this program, I spent extra time on those. Not sure if anything improved at all but it got worked on.

Tomorrow is dress rehearsal so I get to wear my new sparkly dress for the first time on ice. I'm not going to go full out and do hair and makeup or anything because I still need to go to work right after and, let's be real, nobody needs to see me like that. This will be my final lesson with Christopher before the competition so whatever little kinks needs to be ironed out need to get ironed out tomorrow. I do still have one more full practice session, though. I'm debating getting my blades sharpened some time on Saturday so I can get accustomed on Tuesday. Honestly, I should have done it a week ago but my blades still felt like they had some life in them still so I decided to wait. Bad idea. I was very skiddy this morning. Poop.