Beautiful Disaster

I've had a lot of stuff on my mind lately and that has clearly started to affect my skating. My lesson on Friday was a complete mess! It almost felt like I had 20 lb. ankle weights strapped on to me. I just felt heavy and slow and inept. I'm glad the test date got moved to May because as I am now, there is no way I would pass the test. I actually forgot my program halfway through and had to fake it for a few seconds before remembering what to do next. I feel like a disappointment and am embarrassed that I looked so clumsy. I know I'm capable of doing this. I have skated well before. I know I know my program. I hate that I'm letting outside influences affect my performance on the ice. I'll be better next time.

I know this is temporary. I'll just work harder and show my coach that I'm not a bad investment :)