A Montage of Fails

Ok, so you know how in virtually every sports movie there's always a montage of that person's fails before they start getting their shit together and start kicking ass? That's me lately! Except I'm still waiting for the "kicking ass" part. Today's lesson was just...so bad. I had some pretty awful falls and I hurt all over. Part of me wishes it was all caught on film so I can create that montage but then I also think I would be too embarrassed to watch it. Ugh.

Warm-upz - For my off-ice warm-ups, I ran a bit and then did some of the stretches I've been learning in my ballet class using the railing on the upper level of the rink as my barre. Once I got on the ice, it was the usual laps, edges, and some old moves in the field.

Bronze Movez - Not a lot of time spent on this. I really just worked on the FO-BI 3 turn pattern to get those turns warmed up in preparation for my compulsory moves. I'm still struggling with consistency on the RFO-LBI 3 turns but once I remembered to turn my head along with my shoulders, things started to improve a bit.

Compulsoriez - I didn't run the whole thing because I got really focused on my jumps. They are just so terrible as of late you would think I have never jumped before. I feel like because I'm learning so many new things with Silver Moves, Bronze Compulsories, and Bronze FS I'm just falling apart skill-wise. Maybe I'm just overwhelmed by all of this and it's stressing me out?

Lessonz - I already determined that I wanted Christopher to look at my jumps today because I am having such a hard time linking jumps together in combination and I'm not sure what I'm doing wrong. These are all jumps I know how to do on their own but they are just not happening in combo. So we started by looking at the 3-jump combo from my free skate (waltz-toe loop-loop) and I fell. So he changed it to a waltz-toe loop...and I fell. Then he changed it to a salchow-toe loop-loop...and I fell. I think we tried 20 billion combinations of jumps before settling on one that I could actually land; a toe loop-loop. With that settled, we spent some time trying to get my free leg crossed in front for the loop part of the combo. Minimum success here but at least I stayed upright for the most part. Then he wanted to see it in the program so I got the sash on and warned him that it's been a couple of weeks since I ran the program last. I didn't want him to be blindsided by the suck that was about to happen. Surprisingly, I got through the program without a fall and ended on time. It was just really sloppy and I forgot the footwork sequence. He said if I'm testing this thing next month I really need to be better about running it in practices. I promised him I would because, at the rate I'm going, there is no way I will pass Bronze FS in a matter of weeks. We worked a bit on the entrance to the spin before calling it a day.

This was a really bad day on the ice. I'm really thankful that he is so patient with me when I'm unable to be patient with myself. I was clearly frustrated with my skating today and the more frustrated I became, the worse my skating was. I really hope this is just a funk I'm going through and my next practice is better but I'm feeling pretty low about things right now. Sigh.